That’s how you know you love someone, I guess, when you can’t experience anything without wishing the other person were there to see it, too.
Kaui Hard Hemmings (via youngfolksociety)
To my dear keeper,
It’s been a very joyous ride to have you in my life. You made me feel something that I never felt before. It was something unexpected, unplanned. I never thought you’d make me feel this way. I love how you made me feel it.
You always asked me things and I never answered them. And this letter answers all your questions.
We had something no one can explain. Not even us. But we managed to keep up even if there were tons of complications. But then we’ve had enough. We had to part ways. It hurts, yes. but it will be for the betterment of us, of everything. We had the perfect wrong love, I can tell.
I don’t know if I did the right thing… to just let it pass and forget everything. Maybe next time we’ll talk. But I know it will be too late. And I’m trying to accept it as early as now. It’s killing me inside. I want you to know that I’m not having any regrets of choosing you over everything and everyone else.Being with you made me happy and contented. Even if I’m just sitting or lying beside you and not doing anything, I felt happy. I don’t know why.
I will miss everything about us. Even if there’s no us. I will miss the way we kiss, we hug, we talk. The way you annoy me, the way I get annoyed because of you. I will miss biting you and leaving marks on your skin. The things we talk about whenever we’re together. The times we used to smoke together. The times we fight or have our little miscommunications or misunderstandings. I will miss everything. Even the littlest things. I will miss the times you used to dance for me. Maybe soon, I shall see you dance again for me. I will miss everything about you. Everything about us. I will miss you. I will miss us.
I love the way you smile. The way you laugh. The way you dance and the smiles while you dance. I love the times you used to dance and then look at me and smile an kiss me after dancing. Then we both lay down and feel each other’s heartbeats. I love it when you kiss me while I sleep. I love it when I hold your hand while I sleep. It makes me feel secure. I love it when you tell me you love me. I love everything you did to me, everything we did. I love us. I wish we can do everything again soon.
I want you to know that I believe you. I believe in everything you said, every promise you made. I believe you whenever you tell me that you love me. I believe in everything between us.
I know this isn’t easy. Goodbyes are the worst. I hate it. But we have to. We’ll get over it soon. In time. If only I could be with you again and not let you go, I would. But then I can’t. We can’t. I had fun with you. You made me happy in just a short time. And I thank you for that. I wish we could go back to the start. But it’s too late. This feeling I have for you is so strong. It makes me wanna keep you here with me forever. But we both know it won’t happen. You’re still my dancer. Always will. I just hope this isn’t the end. You’re the best dancer I’ve ever seen.
Before this letter ends, I want to thank you for making me alive. I know it’s kinda late to say this but before everything ends, before we end, I want you to know that I love you.