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Letter to a Lover

To my dear keeper,

          It’s been a while since I wrote you a letter. But I swear, this is not about goodbye. All the things that you’ll read here are true. It might be cheesy, corny, unbelievable, impossible, but I’m telling you Schatz, everything’s true.

          Having you in my life is truly one of the greatest gifts I’ve ever received. I wasn’t expecting that we’ll love each other this much and I’m happy that we did, and we still do. You’re the only one I loved this much. You’re the only one I truly loved. I’m very thankful that our paths have crossed. I never thought I would love someone this much. I never thought someone would ever love me this much too. Thanks for that. Thanks for bringing me back from the shadows. You changed me. Your love changed me. Thank you for saving me. I’m really, really thankful for whatever we have right now.

          I’m sorry for the times I hurt you-physically and emotionally. I didn’t mean to hurt you. I never wanted to hurt you. It really comes to a point wherein we may hurt each other unknowingly, unintentionally. But it’s part, right?

          There are a lot of reasons not to love you, to leave you, but I’m here with you, loving you with all my heart, waiting for you patiently. I just love you and I honestly don’t know why. There are a lot of reasons for you not to love me, too. But you’ve been with me for sometime now, loving me, taking care of me without asking for anything in return. Thank you for that.

          We belong in two different worlds. Worlds that I never thought would ever meet. But we managed to have them meet, at least. The worlds may not know each other that well, but we will do everything we can to have things come our way. We will make every effort to have both worlds collide.

          We both know our situation is so complicated, you still have her, my parents are against us, but we don’t mind. We can do this. Our love will conquer everything. Our time will come, we just need to keep on holding on. I can promise you that I won’t give up. Even if it hurts me so much, I will still hold on. Even if the world will be against us, I won’t mind as long as I have you, I’m contented, I’m happy, I’m safe, I am loved.

          I can’t wait to turn our dreams into reality. I can’t wait for our time to come. I can’t wait to build our future together. I can’t wait to wake up beside you every morning and go to bed beside you every night. I can’t wait to celebrate our monthsaries and anniversaries. I can’t wait to spend my birthday with you and all the holidays in the Mayan calendar, Chinese calendar, and all the other existing calendars. I can’t wait for things to come our way. I can’t wait to be with you officially.

          There are still a lot of things I want to tell you. But if I’ll write it now, this letter will become a novel-thickest novel ever. Hahaha. I guess I have to stop at this point.

          Last one though! Before this letter ends, I want you to know that I love you so damn much! I love you with all my heart, with all honesty and sincerity. I’ll still love you even if the skies will cry, even if the universe explodes, even if one black hole will take the Earth. I’ll still love you even if the world will be against us, even if your hair will turn gray, or worse, you will be bald. I’ll still love you in the morning, even at night and noon. I will love you no matter what season or holiday comes. I will love you even if things will not agree with us. I will love you no matter what happens. I love you and I will love you forever.

                                                                                              Your treasure

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STOP YOU CANT DONT THIS TO ME

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Letter to a Stranger

To my dear keeper,

          It’s been a very joyous ride to have you in my life. You made me feel something that I never felt before. It was something unexpected, unplanned. I never thought you’d make me feel this way. I love how you made me feel it.

          You always asked me things and I never answered them. And this letter answers all your questions.

          We had something no one can explain. Not even us. But we managed to keep up even if there were tons of complications. But then we’ve had enough. We had to part ways. It hurts, yes. but it will be for the betterment of us, of everything. We had the perfect wrong love, I can tell. 

          I don’t know if I did the right thing… to just let it pass and forget everything. Maybe next time we’ll talk. But I know it will be too late. And I’m trying to accept it as early as now. It’s killing me inside. I want you to know that I’m not having any regrets of choosing you over everything and everyone else.Being with you made me happy and contented. Even if I’m just sitting or lying beside you and not doing anything, I felt happy. I don’t know why.

          I will miss everything about us. Even if there’s no us. I will miss the way we kiss, we hug, we talk. The way you annoy me, the way I get annoyed because of you. I will miss biting you and leaving marks on your skin. The things we talk about whenever we’re together. The times we used to smoke together. The times we fight or have our little miscommunications or misunderstandings. I will miss everything. Even the littlest things. I will miss the times you used to dance for me. Maybe soon, I shall see you dance again for me. I will miss everything about you. Everything about us. I will miss you. I will miss us. 

          I love the way you smile. The way you laugh. The way you dance and the smiles while you dance. I love the times you used to dance and then look at me and smile an kiss me after dancing. Then we both lay down and feel each other’s heartbeats. I love it when you kiss me while I sleep. I love it when I hold your hand while I sleep. It makes me feel secure. I love it when you tell me you love me. I love everything you did to me, everything we did. I love us. I wish we can do everything again soon.

          I want you to know that I believe you. I believe in everything you said, every promise you made. I believe you whenever you tell me that you love me. I believe in everything between us. 

          I know this isn’t easy. Goodbyes are the worst. I hate it. But we have to. We’ll get over it soon. In time. If only I could be with you again and not let you go, I would. But then I can’t. We can’t. I had fun with you. You made me happy in just a short time. And I thank you for that. I wish we could go back to the start. But it’s too late. This feeling I have for you is so strong. It makes me wanna keep you here with me forever. But we both know it won’t happen. You’re still my dancer. Always will. I just hope this isn’t the end. You’re the best dancer I’ve ever seen.

          Before this letter ends, I want to thank you for making me alive. I know it’s kinda late to say this but before everything ends, before we end, I want you to know that I love you.

                                                                                                               Your treasure

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